I felt upset and insecured today for no reason. I was worried about the thing which might not even exist.

I tried to text, but my battery died on the way back from office.I thought we did not talk much these days. I was driving with absent mind, saw the backlight of the cars before flashing.

Forget about it, i am just having my moements, some frustrations. I am not perfect.

sometime i am weird, attacking people in some way. I did not mean to be hostile. but i admit i just did, more frequently.

I need some reality check! people do it all the time. Asking your friend is the best way. they will tell you all the truth you dont want to hear at all.

The thing we talked about tonight is the thing i had been thinking for last couple weeks and even marked it down on my planner.

Devotion!

we do things, all the time. Some can do just one, some pick the major, some always lag behind, and others can juggle.

shoud we be proud that we can deal with all the things at the same time? I am kinda 'deal-with -all' type. It used to be my pride. now i see it in a different way after a long conversation with Mr. "Q&A".

Is the fact we are doing the things enough for us?

It is the time for us to devote ourselves in the things we are doing, considering our age, our experince, our mates, our parents, our goal, more important, ourselves.

Just simply doing things means nothing to us, like walking vaguely. Too superficial.

It is like the difference between "he is alive" and " he is living a life".

We study, we work, we go to interview, we support our friends, we date, we love...

Do we ever think of how well we can do, how far we can push, how best we can achieve.

we all know ends could not justify the means. The means is what we should care about and for which we need put more effort on. and then we can reap more from it.

Devotion makes us successful. devote myself into work, focus back, dig in. Get back on track! It is hard but worth a try.

Changing is good, but to stick to your plan is more important in life.

I said 50 is new 25, no rush in our ages. We will be fine, take time and be devoted.

Forest Gump Theory!

 

I had that strong feeling this morning, i am gonna love tonite's premiere. To be frank, I have been doing the warm-up for tonite since last month, I set Carrie's bedroom picture as my desktop, i watched Oprah's talk show abt the promotion, I re-watched the tv show...

The truth is the feeling is right. I just love it. And i am gonna say something here.

I booked 7 seats for our girls in the office today for the premiere.

Can you imagine we got all the women audients sitting in the cinema, just a few males sitting in between. Definitely, girls party!

The movie started with fancy shoes... it is all about shoes, you can talk about shoes with your next buddy thru the whole movie.

the PentHouse, the Beethoven's love letters, the Mexican resort, the nude body covered with sushi...

It is a love movie, It is breathtaking when i saw Mr. big said to Carrie:welcome home, babe.

we love crap movies, coz there are lots of things we can laugh at, we love teary movies, coz there are heartbroken parts we can share to heal,

this movie contains both, we could not stop laughing, and we cried a lot.

"Botox is worth more than getting married."

" you shit your pants, you have done your worst for the whole year"

hard to forget the ending part. " to our next fifties!" sounds a loud booty call for us!!!

 

Btw: Besides the fancy shoes and clothes, the music is another highlighted spot!

Ladies, i will watch it at least 10 times, i swear it!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

今天在下班后, 公司组织Game Night. 大家一起玩Wii和XBox. 公司还provide beer, pizza, sweets.因为要开车, 所以不能喝酒.

用上了公司里面三个超大屏幕, 三组人一起玩. 哈爽.

Tennis, Bowling, Halo,

从没玩过Video game, 第一次, bowling玩的不错, 来了几个strike. 杀了几个老板片甲不留.

可没想到, 老板两个儿子一来,我就败的一踏糊涂.

Video game一定要配超大屏幕, Cool.想买一个!

悉你的下雨天, 从CITY坐车回来的路上, 不知道该想什么, 自从开车做一切事情后,坐汽车的机会少了, 都不知道在车上该做什么拉饿

突然很想再看边爱在哈佛, 前十集就够了.

来了这里后才知道电视剧里读书读到想死的痛苦, 深夜在海边狂奔, 在临海的小旅馆里度假, 一堆学生住在一起, 不停的交这个论文, 那个报告 的感觉.

草很绿, 天很蓝, 读书很辛苦. 一个人生活很自由.

昨天在看dan brown的angels and demons, 深夜2:30,killer才终于出现.今天去CITY化装也带着两个大黑眼圈.

不知道Yale会不会和哈佛很象, 希望会.至少它离NYC很近. 我要争取. 既能去YALE, 又能圆我去NYC的愿望!

和F打电话, 听说他马上要去了. 希望他在那里会有个nice trip.

听molly说上海office有可能要搬到Mori building, 上海最高的那幢楼,在浦东, 先是觉得不好, travel too much, 后来想想, 很cool, 那可是Shanghai World Financial Center,一览众山小. 不知道下次回去, 是不是就要去那里看同事了.不知道我那张很ugly的海报会不会还在公司门口.

公司的小徒弟混的不错, 听说都有人直接在地铁里表白还送花送熊的. 羡慕! MOLLY说我把她带坏了, 现在男人不坏都不要的. 实在冤枉! 我徒弟可混的比我好!

今天还和ELLA在CITY计划着最后一个学期结束马上飞回家呢.希望一切按计划进行!